My back hurts – normal, lack of sleep, back not supported.
Been doing pharmaco since this morning – CNS depression, sedative, epileptics and schizo. I think I can go psychotic already or depress if I continue.
Maybe Joanne was correct. Maybe I do have bipolar disorder.
Guess my mind is just a dangerous thing. Controllable or uncontrollable.

I was concentrating when studying. But, I realized how many times my mind wandered towards sth else. Or rather towards that one thing. And now, I just wonder, why is it still there…so clear in my head.

Every single moment, every single conversation, every single meet.

It is not that I dun want to let go. I must say this time, it’s so much better as am not dwelling upon it. But why is it still there?? It’s going to be 3 months and it’s still there.

Why is it still there?
Why does it still hurt?
When will it go away?
When can I face you with a heart full of love and not runaway so that you dun feel how I feel whenever I see you?

Cos I am tired, exhausted, to handle it all by myself.

Finally…..i get to study!! Call me weird I know.
Back to KL, my getaway period starts from today.
Funny though, this recess I dun really want to go back, just wanna stay in my room – does that mean it that’s my home already?
But I needed to go back to focus on my study.

And sadly, not even 12 hours upon arrival, misunderstandings and miscommunications have started. How can I not think I am a pain in the ass?

Lunch meeting got cancelled. Went out early for the next one. Had this thought where I rather be at home studying.

But I guess I was out there for a reason. To meet my friend, to just slack my afternoon, to give myself a break from work and studies, though I was freaking tired. To just get out of campus and breathe some ‘outside’ air

Proceed to the night one, all the way to pasir ris. On the way, bumped into Wei Xin; I really am being watched over by someone => Didn’t stay long at the retreat, but I enjoyed my time there. Met the NUSSU ppl who are all very nice ppl. The world really is small. Bumped to two acquaintances.

Sad part: MY CANDY GOT STOLEN FROM THE FRIDGE!!! Very very very annoyed with this. The third incident and counting no more!!

Cultural studies group discussion = LOST
Yum Char with Cous Cous = HIGH, for the first time, everyone is present!!
Visiting the Library = FREAKED OUT

I just dun wanna move any part of my body !!

I just dun wanna move any part of my body!!!