i need a slap!!!
cos i need to wake up
from my dream;
my dream is what i want.
my dream
where there are no worries
no rushing against time
no disputes of feelings;
nothing that will interrupt
the joy and serenity of two hearts
abundant time to be shared and enjoyed
meddling with the company of each other
and just be at peace.....

seriously...
i need to wake up
cos a dream is only a dream
and reality is where i live
and what i have to face
not only enduring my heart and mind
but of others
hoping that others will understand
what the other is thinking, feeling and hoping
or at the very least
to listen to what i have to say and feel

it feels heavy
it feels not right
it feels horrible
it feels somewhat of pain

i dunno how
i dunno why
it is what it is now

it wants to break free
but that might make it worse
for it doesnt know
whether it will be healed
received and treated well by comfort
or it may end up
feeling worse than it already has

now is the time
that the mind should take control
funny isnt it
how ironic the situation is now

why does it feel that way
why does it rebel
why doesnt it be as calm and as peaceful as before
why does it suffer now

It's Monday and unlike usual start of the week of classes, yeap, this week is recess. of course, recess is just a name given for this week, cos i think its no recess at all. so many work to do, things to read, ppl to meet up.

last nite, popped by at a bbq, and glad to have caught up with one of my alumni, jen ley. the weekend was exhausting, saturday full day of catching up. morning breakfast with seoh thin from pharmacy. then being so kuai, went to central lib to get some books. finishing the election process for vpc at noon, evening was time to catch up with good old day pal, chang mei. too bad it was too short of a time that we get to spend time together. but nevertheless, thank goodness, we have that lil time of ours to chat.

why must time fly by soo fast.....i still wanna enjoy every single moment of my life which of course include the tiredness, hecticness, busyness......studies. yes, i wanna indulge in studying, rather than having to rush in studying. oh well.....

all the best to all my med pals who are sitting for their pros, cas today, tomorrow and for the rest of the week or so.

study hard all my frens who have cas next week.

time sure is running out....and guess wat, this is my first recess that i stayed in SG. i always tot i could not survive the week here with no uni or attachment.

so i guess i was wrong...
not sure if its the busyness...
or the people...
or if this is just where my heart belongs...

starting of week 6 tomorrow....and then RECESS.......

no, am not screaming for joy, but instead, hoping that time will not pass so fast

this sem is once again flying by sooo fast
after recess, busy hectic period, cas, assignments, events and activities

oh well, am just starring at my pile of notes
haven touched a single one of them starting from week 1

but life is still fun =>

oh btw, happy belated valentines day people
hope you all had a great time with your loved ones
or at least, live a normal day
and also, HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY too
thanks to those who know me
in one or another

i feel blessed...
no,
i AMMM so blessed...
by grace and love,
i spirit and in truth
and there's nothing can i ask for more
but to thank you...

ok, back to studies
but before that, greys first
hahah
told you life is fun
with cream cheese

study hard people!!

You asked me what is love;
Truly from the bottom of my heart,
this is how i love...

Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, It does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking, It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.
Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends.
L o v e N e v e r F a i l s.
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Faith, Hope and Love.
But the greatest of these is love.

and it is based on those that i am hanging on to you, in happiness or in sadness, in anger or in doubt, always, now and forever...

for without faith and hope, there is no love...

BUT, at times of when you are in bad shape, tired, as much as i would be too, sometimes, just sometimes, it is sooo hard for me to hang on to those words and enter to your stage...

and i just wished at times, most times, i can have a bigger heart, a bigger mind, a bigger soul to still accomodate all that you have got during that sometimes...

while having me in your arms, being told that everything, both you and i are going to be fine...

i just hope that you realize i can be in your stage too...