dream dream dream

have you decided on one thing and the next thing you know, you wonder if you are making the correct the decision....or worse, if life is telling you that you shouldnt have made that decision?

oh well, i guess that happens to me all the time. it's hard making decisions, part and parcel of personal growth. and just as i made a decision....a tough and painful decision on the plane in the middle of south china sea yesterday, i was happy that perhaps i made the correct one after meeting one of my fren back in class.

but it wasnt long till i got the news that this friday my group is gonna have a field trip to the blood bank centre. then opening my flooded inbox, one of my fren is posted to the hospital which we are visiting this friday. and wat else, waking up late today, only to be freaked out with the dream i had this morning.

and made me skipped lecture AGAIN this morning. talking bout waking up.....this doesnt sound like a good start.

the dream i guess was the creepiest one of all.....fresh and clear in my head....now i hate waking up during the rapid eye movement stage.....or perhaps only for this particular morning. every scene, conversation and actions was just in my head.

i wonder, if its trying to say sth about the decision i just made, since all three incidents had one in common. i also wonder if i am just getting closer and closer to the world of psychosis or hallucinations.

all i know is that recalling my conversation with dear fren, wei qi on finals, just saves my mind from all those crap thoughts. can vomit blood already, seeing how much i have to catch up and study.

guess tomorrow is another test day for year2s skills, and year1s anatomy. all the best.

and again its just sooo annoying when you have that doubt if life is trying to point you sth.

we'll see in a few days time. all i know, the decision had to be done, not because i dun have faith or it's pointless or what, but perhaps this is the challenge that i have to go thru

-to stella and wei qi, fate lovers -

*if i cant give the greatest love to you, then all i can do is to throw flowers to you*
*and here i am, waiting till that time*