it starts now!

so pharmaco was horrible. i hate fungals....seriously, i cant recall anything from it. the test was of course a killer to all of us. lotsa pk came out and i din dare take my chances this time in answering all of the questions.

many of course were distressed, displeased after the test. normal reaction, but i was just jolly. perhaps its just me to let go off things that cant be changed. i mean the test is done, cant change our answers. and rather than dwelling upon it, work hard on the next test, which is i know an even bigger killer, FINALS.....

but i guess ppl who reacts as of the above as much normal, saner than one who reacts due to emotions connected to people. the test din hit me as bad as HUN. yeap, HUN is just constantly there. i know i cant blame HUN as we are both in the same place, same uni, same fac. but not always the same time right?

just as i thought i can breathe a lil after pharmaco, finishing my cultural assignments, and looking forward for the movie at nite, HUN appears. and i get very very agitated...which i think my bad mood reaction is worse than those after the exam.

nap, solved juniors problem, and out for movies. since high school musical was out of the league last week, last night, finally we managed to watch it. true enough, previous parts were nicer, in terms of songs, dance and wardrobe. but i must say i LOVE THE SETS!!! the props and designs. it was great.

two weeks in a row of movies, i wonder when is my next trip to the cinema. i doubt its gonna be anytime near as finals are around the corner and then attachment looms in. oh, bad news for attachment, well at least bad news for me and min yuan, jillian said we might get posted back to the SAME WARD!!! high chances for this in AH!!!! crap la, means that two clinical insturctors where we commented last sem. hope they are not gonna drill us. i guess the bad thing for this is not much exposure to other wards......which is crucial to me now that we are still young and observant

morning went for physio and the physio said the sore has spread to the upper and lower region of my back. not to say its good or bad, at least now its not concentrated to the worse part of my back. yeah....back...HURTS.....massaging, pinchin, and i dunno what else she did, it hurts sooo badly, physio please, you cant blame me for not being able to relax with the pain.

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thunder and lightning, i am afraid of you.
and yes, i do MSH.
but most of all, i dun like what you said about it HUN.

it starts now....my mugging for finals. i only have 5 days before leaving sg again. i soo need to focus and its starts now. my back, the weather, some people, my mood, and definitely the sienness is making me hard to keep on the books/notes

it starts now...getting use to not seeing HUN. yeap, as much as i dun like bumping into you, especially yesterday, questioning why why why do i have to see you.....i know a lil part of me, deep down in my hearrt, knows that i am glad to see you yesterday. cos after that, i doubt when will i see you again. it starts now, the chances of bumping into you has gone.

it starts now...to stop talking to you MSH. its very nice of you for all the things that you did so far. but i am afraid, and whats making it worse is HUN is haunting me whenever i am with you. i know its not fair, but i am afraid. i wish you would know. but i really have to stop myself from drawing anything closer to you, for i know i dun think i will be able to take it if things eventually will be the same as HUN. i know i am falling into it and i doubt its true, so i guess i have to stop and it starts now.

i would runaway
perhaps it because
i'm never gonna stop falling in love with you

it starts now, not being to see you anymore HUN and having to distant myself from you MSH so i wouldn get hurt deeper in future.....it all starts now with the help of finals.....

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it starts now....focus ppl!!