finally am done with my case study. got some room to breathe a lil. next in line is skills test before finals. it sooo fast, gonna have to start mugging. and i have no idea why, my room just seem to have sth to be cleaned/tidied upon....

tired, just tired, why? because of dreams...yes, dreams....bad sleeping pattern. the day that i can sleep in, i wake up damn early and vice versa. wats worse, the dreams just kills your rest. if its a good dream its not too bad....but it sucks when its so horrible that you just end up waking up crying.

time...is a very selfish thing. it does not wait for people. it cannot be bargained but be chased upon. it stands proud of all things, not having to change a single aspect. and who evers has it all, uses it all, for his or her own advantage wins it all.

fear...thats the biggest hindrance to some ppl.....fear, makes you stop one step before you should walk further. fear, makes you doubt even more, and start doubting yourself and not embark towards anything else, anything good.

but its life, all those has to be endured if you wan to win sth, to succeed. no matter how hard it is, sth will motivate you to push furhter, to hang on, to just live....

and though its hard for me, with the fear, doubts and tiredness interrupting.....
am trying my best to just
live life with love
because at the end of the day
it endures all things....
or at least, i hope it will

-faith, hope and love-

the study in infants, psychologically, how they are attached socially to their parents.

3 types:
1. securely attached - distress when their parents are not around and happy when they are
2. insecurely avoidant - couldnt care less when their parents are not around and they are also fine with them being there
3. insecurely resistant - distress when their parents are not around and yet stress too when their parents are not around

which one do you think you were years back?
are you like that now?

cos i know
i was the indecisive one
still am
and tryin to get out of it =>

i dun know what it means
i dun know if sth needs to be done
i just know i am tired, crying over you

i am tired
having tears rolling down my cheeks
because of you

i am tired
feeling the deep hurt in my heart
because of you

i am tired
having to wake up to all this
in the middle of the night

is it going to be true
or is that how it has always been
its just that i dun know

everything seems fine
here and there
but why does this happened

being apart,
i dun know what it means
i dun know if sth has to be done

even if we were near,
i still wont know what it means
and if sth needs to be done

all i know,
here or there
it happens at times
and i am tired

i still cant believe that recess is over and in fact one week of classes has gone.
crazy week and more to come in the next few weeks.

finally done with psych ca, med soci ca, and psych paper last week.
psych was just crazy having 100 mcqs in an hour. i know i wont score. and now i just hope i can score a lil for my psych paper.
med soci, i guess am just blessed, really blessed. to have this feeling of this sociologist and indeed his name was my question. heheh, but oh well, whether or not my piece was good still depends.
afterall med soci is the super uber abstract arts module. have no idea what the lecturer is looking for

just gotten over microbi today. and wat can i say, i have no idea how am i gonna survive finals seeing the amount of infos to memorize from psych, med soci and contem too. my brain was just plain saturated with micrbi by sunday evening. i did my best, paper was scorable actually. just ope all my infos are in my long term memory and that my retrieval process, was smooth.

it really was a stressful period for all since recess week. and now whats waiting for us is smelly case study. have no freaking idea how to start.

but i am happy....despite the tiredness, hectiness...i am happy with my life....my studies, the tests. i am glad i can still smile. in this season of lent, prayer, fasting and almsgiving, adds on to the joy from the achievement to get thru this insane period.

yes, studies are important, tests must be prepared well, but life is not just bout those two....
life has to go own, doing laundry, having to fill our stomachs, relaxing with music and series....
life has to go own with the ppl around us and things ever moving, ever changing, appreciating the time spent with frens, whether its a heated moment for all or just a calm quiet interchange of wat each wants, and also the hardness of finding a perfect timing to catch up.

i am just glad, happy to experience all those important things in life in the midst of busy moments. feeling blessed, i know someones watching over me.

gonna have to start on case study soon. due next friday and openhouse this weekend!!
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